This is not going well, I can't sleep, I can't breath, I'm in actual physical pain. Millions of thoughts at once, yes and no, die and live, go and stay but mostly "why?".
Now as I lay my fingers on the keyboard, the strength to even type something just isn't there, the empty stare into this blank screen shows I know nothing, I mean nothing, just another spec of dust waiting for the wind to finally take me away and be done with it all.

This can't be right, I shouldn't be here. I don't deserve to be here, I don't want to be here anymore. So many people with so much better futures, much better people than me, left my company. The world would be so much better off without me. I'm empty, sad, depressed, lonely, I'm nothing. Please take my place. I give up...