And so, with just a glimpse, the void returns. What was already a pretty battered and beaten shell of a heart, again, let itself be fooled by that fucking stupid disease called love, and now obviously here I am alone, not loved, not wanted, not needed just continuing to exist for no other purpose than to suffer.
This pain, I've managed to avoid for quite some time now, as found its way back in. I've fought night and day to avoid feelings rushing in and make me believe in something that will never happen.
The chaos in my head just keeps getting worse, why doesn't anything make sense. The simplest thing evolves into something so complicated that it loses its meaning. Why do we always love what we can’t get, that we know we’ll never have, that we know it doesn't love us?
But then again, why would it ever happen, why would someone care, like, love me. I don’t!
I don’t want to give up but sometimes it’s really hard, some days nearly impossible, and today is one of those days.
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